This is not the kind of topic i normally write about. I stick to travelling and happier parts of my life, but thought it was time to write a post about something that I’ve been struggling with recently.
I graduated last year with a 2;1 from Manchester University. I studied French, but always wanted to work in Fashion and PR. I chose to stay in Manchester because i knew London would be too expensive for me, and thought i would easily find a job here.
After months of searching, i got nothing. I went to interview after interview and was never selected. It was demoralising. I had no idea what to do, and had moved back home. I treated applying for jobs as a full-time job, and as soon as i had sent off another application i would wait dejectedly.
I didn’t enjoy my summer as every minute felt like hours whilst i played the waiting game.I eventually found a job through a friend of a friend in the insurance industry. Desperate for a start in the job world and an occupation, I took it.
In writing this post, I am interested to see how many other people have struggled with this kind of issue, because as with anything difficult, we often feel we are alone in our struggle.
The job has been awful. Cold calling for 6 months then i got promoted and things got better, before being sent back to cold calling when my boss’s work and responsibilities were scaled back. I spent days on my own with nothing to do and no instructions. Literally sitting and twiddling my thumbs.
Our company boasts a large office in Bristol and in London, but the Manchester office was opened when i started. It was just me, my boss and another guy who was fired in February.
Since then, its been just me and her. An exceptionally hard and odd working environment for a 23 year old who craved a busywork day and people to talk to.
I have been more bored than ever in my life, but still i didn’t leave.
A few months ago i decided enough was enough and pulled myself out of my stupor. I started applying for other jobs and found one.
Although its not the dream job, it is a step in the right direction. I’ve learnt so much about myself in the past few months, and found that i was letting my negativity get the better of me and almost consume me.
So I urge you, if you dislike your job but love the stability of the paycheque, or just feel like ‘no one else will employ me’ STOP IT. Start looking for other jobs and get your confidence back. Look for the area you dislike the most in your current job, and then search for a job that is better than your current position in this area.
I realised i assumed i would go from awful job to dream job in one fail swoop, but in truth you can’t go from A-Z in a day. Try reaching letter C or D; walking before you run.
I waited a year to move, and was actually really lazy. However now i feel back on track and it is only now i’ve sorted out my head that I’ve realised how much it was affecting me before. I am happier, more confident and more positive since taking control.
So, if you’ve been through something similar, let me know. All my friends seem to have gone from uni into an ideal job and i felt like the minority, so it would be good to chat to people who can empathise.
I know there are people out there who have had much worse a struggle and after going through this, I feel i have gained a better sense of perspective and lost my self pity. If you have any doubts and this all sounds familiar, I urge you to take control.
Lots of Love,